Worry VS Faith

I am a worrier...there I said it. I am a perfectionist and therefore I am constantly worrying whether something is done right, or looks right. I am also a planner and so I like to make sure things are done when they need to be done, and I have an idea of what is going on at all times. This often puts me in a state of constant worry.

I struggle daily to give up my worry and focus on my faith. I know that God is bigger than any of my problems, and I know that he will take care of me, but the human in me struggles to give up control. I have though in the past been able to step aside and give God control. These are the times that I have felt closer to Him and my faith has grown leaps and bounds.

In 2009, I gave up control and decided to FINALLY date Hubby. You can read about our story here. We decided to date, get engaged and marry all within 10 months. This was a huge leap of faith for both of us, and it turns out to be the best decision we have ever made.

In 2010, Hubby was in search for a full time Youth Ministry position. He had recently graduated from college, only had limited experience, and was desperately trying to find a job before we got married. He had multiple phone interviews and most of them didn't pan out. Finally we had a phone interview with a church in Georgia. After hanging up the phone I told Hubby "that's where we are going to be". I had prayed constantly that God would send us to the perfect church for us. After that call I got this overwhelming feeling that God was giving me peace over the situation. It turns out that after a few more calls and in-person interviews we got the job.

In 2012 we decided to let God be in control of our future family. I stopped taking birth control and we decided that we weren't going to "try" but let God decide when we were ready to get pregnant. Turns out that was right way because the next month our test said positive!

And in the beginning of the year we struggled with our hardest decision since getting married. We were given the opportunity to move back to our hometown and work at a local church. It was a very tough decision, but we feel that we have made the right one. You can read all about our decision here.

Although these were some of the biggest decisions of our lives, our reliance and assurance that God would take care of us has made it possible to persevere. It can be hard to give up control; I still struggle with it everyday, but the peace that it provides is better than any high you get from being in control.